Shad0wCharm's World

I've never felt this tired. 
9.30pm only and it feels like it's way past bedtime. 
I need my sleep. 
Work is not depriving me of my sleep. It's the unexplained surge of energy I get when I get home causing me to sleep really late. But not tonight. I'm dead tired, physically tired. 

You know what, I'm actually very excited and looking forward to starting to do actually work. It sounds strange, but seeing the seniors do those reports makes me very looking-forward to things. Must have developed the love for report writing in poly. I can't wait! Can fast forward to September please? 
Haha! Bet I won't be saying the same thing in September. 

Being out on job isn't really that bad. The happiest thing is that I don't have to worry about looking professional like everyone in Raffles Place. That really saves me alot of engery from trying to look and behave like a OL. And client's office at Jurong East made me felt right at home especially during lunch. 

Ok, as strange as this may sound but I'm really heading to bed now. I can't take it no more. 

Will update soon about my obession with shopping for office attire these days.

After 3 days at Raffles Place, I've more or less grown accustomed to the kind of life there. Moving around with the flow and the morning rush hour goes one direction. Away from the MRT station. Enjoying the scenery of the concrete jungle from way up there. I'm loving this kind of life. Well, for now. 

I'm home early for once. Left work at 5.45pm, avoided the rush hour crowd and got home in less than an hour. But wearing heels for the 1st time in months almost killed me. Hate the idea of having to hide the pain behind a poised office lady look. aRgh!

I'm tired... and I dread the idea of starting work. 
I don't know how to face this intern-yet-will-be-perm-staff position of mine. 
I don't wanna meet new people. I don't want to grow up... *sigh*

I'm not exactly ready for work. I don't have a proper, decent looking handbag. I can't walk in heels without wanting to fall. And I hate having to act like a grown-up! 

Rah! And I'm getting very pissed about certain online stuff... 
I don't want to be mean but I'm getting pissed with each passing day. 
Bought some stuff since before the exams started, and now my work is going to start, I've not gotten it. This just shows how irresponsible people can be. Despite tons of girls bugging her for our stuff, she remains aloft to everything, taking her own bloody sweet time. Argh!

Been ignoring this little space of mine. Well, I haven't exactly always been in front of the laptop these days. And I haven't been having any thoughts either. Letting my mind take a well-deserved break before work starts next week. 

Yup, work is starting next week. And seriously, although I kinda dread the idea of having to grow-up and be matured since now I'll be working, I'm loving the idea of starting work. It'll be a start of a new phrase of my life where one thing will lead to the next. 

Put it in this way. Working mean money will come in. That's when I can start spending and dressing up. That's also when I can start saving for the future. And when we've saved enough my boy and I can start a family called OURS. 

Isn't that something worth working towards? 
Especially after I attended my Poly-Best-Pal's ROM, makes me motivated to work towards that direction with my special him. Whether he's motivated ornot... I'm sure he is too. I'll ask him later, haha!

I look around my room and what do I see? 

Things lying on the shelves waiting to be packed! 

Bought some containers from Daiso today to store some of my many crafts materials. My crafts materials as in papers for scrapbooking, and some little card-making. Not those kinda DIY-jewellery crafts. 

Can't wait to get my new bookshelf to store away my nonsense and make way for new clothes. 

Must start shopping for OL clothes already. Rah! Hate that idea. I can only imagine myself looking like a "kid playing dress up". As much as I can't wait to work so that the monies will start rolling in, I kinda dread starting that phrase of life... Or to say, "that phrase of no life". Will it be all work and no play by then? We'll see really soon! 

On a happier note, it shall be Besties Day Out tomorrow. Can't wait!

It feels good to be rotting in front of the computer, just doing nothing and not feel guilty that I haven't been studying. Been out since exams ended on Monday, and seriously, it's tiring. Both physically & monetary exhausting. *sigh* I'm getting broke with each passing day, and I can't find a job, thanks to that pathetic internship that will be starting in July. I'll have to survive on $600 for about 3months before results are released and I become a full-time staff.

I remember that I used to hate stay-home Saturdays. There was once when I was in Poly, my mum actually sorta forced me to stay home on a Saturday because I was going out too frequently, I cried. 
But I don't hate staying at home today... for this could be the last weekend I ever have to stay home just to study. *cheers*


Was telling Eve that I may want to switch over to LJ, for the convinence of bitching about work. But that's when work starts. For now, I can't bear to leave my blog. It holds too many memories... from my first entry in 2003, till now... 


Anyway, as for those who managed to find me here from a link on my blog, congrats! Here's a side of me that is prone to words. haha!

*sigh* I can't get a single word into my head and the exams is in 12hours. This is my 2nd least studied unit. And I can't help being distracted. I'm drawing nearer to the 4th. And I can hear freedom whispering to me. It's so close! But I have a huge problem... I'm broke. OFFICIALLY BROKE. It didn't hit me that I was broke until my account was $2 lesser due to service charge.  Gosh, what can I say when I've spent around $300 in a month on god-knows-what. 

The saddest thing is I can't get a job for a month, and even when work starts in July, I'll be only drawing $600! 
Argh! I need donations! 


*sigh*... 50 First Dates, such a sweet show eh? 

That feeling of entering the exam hall to realise that the seat is the 1st in the row... that same seat that saw me through that dreadful paper last year that I thought I would fail but thankfully passed with 2 marks. 

I sat down, thinking if this was a bad sign. Was this paper as doomed as I fear it would be? I try to keep myself calm, not wanting to show that cracky-stressed up side of me. 

Finally, the paper came to me... I flipped it open with anticipation... First question, Consolidated Accounts, my forte! And the words were big... not small and intimidating. I relaxed a little. Second question, mini-standards, still do-able if I don't have the choice. I start to flip frantically through the whole book to find the 2 other questions that I only studied... 

Question 4, Taxation, whole question of 25marks. How lucky can I get. It seldom/never appeared as full 25marks question! 
Question 5, Foreign Currency, my second best topic! 

Oh, I'm one lucky bitch!


So now, that's 1 down and 3 to go! 
Woot! 

ps: shall update proper on a very lovely surprise I got yesterday. Stay tuned!

It's the weekend before the exams and there's this uncertainty stirring in me. 
I'm having problems getting to sleep these few nights. And I bet it'll be worst tomorrow night. For now, I'm kinda afraid. I only studied few topics and mastered them well. So I'm practically taking a gamble. 

*sigh* And now the most distracting thing is to decide which Chloe bag I want... 

I want a black, that's for sure. But should I get a dark brown? Or a milkish brown? Or Bronzary brown? 

Yup, I know, more online shopping = more damage! 


I'm desperately looking forward to the end of this exams. Argh!

Sigh...  $29.70 that's more damage done. 
I can't help wanting to get this super cheap facial mask! 

http://community.livejournal.com/_spreee/1174960.html

I admit that I've an obession with facial mask these days. What's better way to relax between revision with a facial mask on ur face and just lying there resting. 


Here's a breakdown of my online spendings for this month: 

$64.10  AF Polo Tees
$19.50 My Name Stickers
$13.40 Charms
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$97

+ $29.70 Facial mask! 
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$126.70


OMG! Someone stop me! And I'm still intending to get more Charms!

I couldn't sleep till 7+ this morning. This usually happens whenever I have a paper the next day. But the funny thing is, I wasn't the one with a paper today. My boy is the one with the paper today. I guess I'm feeling his nervousness too since last year when I sat for the paper, I wished that the floor would open up and swallow me whole. 

Anyway, as I tossed & turned in bed, all that I could think of is the fun I could have after exams and that ride that is coming! Can't wait!

*sigh* 

I'm in desperate in of "besties day out". Bitching session and fun with girls. Didn't have a proper time with them for what seems like ages. 


I CAN'T WAIT FOR EXAMS TO END! 


Recently, all I can think of is... I'm going to do this after exams, go there or where after exams. That's the major downside of exams. Makes me deprived of fun. The good thing though... my skin is getting all the rest away from make-up. wahaha!  

Now that I got this working and getting the hang outta it, I've decided to stick to this name. 

"Shad0wCharm"

That's a zer0 in the Shad0w in case you don't know. 


Why am I writing here? Well, I didn't abandon my beloved Blogspot, and I don't the intention to either. I'm here because I want a space where I can voice my thoughts. LiveJournal has this feature which I kinda like. Fellow livejournalists will know what I mean, so feel free to add me. You don't have to identify yourself if you don't want to. :)